Random thoughts of a cynical girl

i_am_just_maria @ 2005-02-04T18:10:00

2005-02-04T17:11:12Z

if you read this, even if i don't speak to you often, you must post a memory of me.
it can be anything you want, just so long as it happened.
then post this to your journal. see what people remember about you....

another nostalgy attack

2005-01-30T13:43:59Z

14 degrees...I seriously need to come back or i am gonna freeze my butt off here...
I really miss Claire,Jessicka,Kristin,Marie,Angel,Stefani,Jen,Christine,Jen, Liana,Tachi,Eric,Marty,Torry,Shepin,Liz,Dan,Stephen,and many more and I dont really know what to do with myself without them!
Especially a couple of exremely cool ladies/gentlemen(you know who you are!!) who mean soo much to me!!
i love you soo much guys!
I met so many special people there, someone more deeply and someone less.
But all of you, everyone single one who crossed my life, have a piece of my heart.
Why am I so corny today?
well..gotta go get dressed, it's 2 43 pm and i am still in my pjs!yay!

sono stressata

2005-01-17T20:57:11Z

i am so stressed out, i am gonna die

yess!!

2005-01-02T20:01:42Z

i had the best new years ve ever!
it was totally crazy!!
yess!
and i am 18 now!
yeah!
oh by the way thank you everybody for NOT remembering my birthday!(actually a couple of the coolest people ever remembered it!love you!you are the best)
nevermind i love you all anyways!
pictures coming soon!
love
Maria

yay

2004-12-28T20:19:26Z

i cut my hair today!!i looove it!
and it's my birthday tomorrow!yay

BUON NATALE!!!!!

2004-12-24T20:23:10Z

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

BUON NATALE!!!!!

I miss you and I love you all

Maria

YES!!

2004-12-22T15:24:09Z

YESS!
today was the last day of school before christmas break!yay!!
i really need some rest...i have been so stressed out from school lately that i really need RELAX!
so tonight i am going clubbing...cuz there is the school party..it's gonna be soo much fun!i hope i am gonna met someone interesting...hehehe
one of my friends is going to washington tomorrow..i am sooo jealous!!i told him to hide me in his suitcase...but he didnt want to...nooo
i could have come to az for a while but unfortunately my friend Ricky didnt like my evil plan...hahaha
i gotta go for now
un bacio a tutti
Maria

boredom..

2004-12-17T18:04:54Z

uhm...i am really really cold and bored..I should study(like usual) but i dont feel like at this right moment.

Well today was kinda crappy, i did a crappy history test, well actually i am doing shitty at school in general..which is not good...it makes me depressed!!!

The good thing is that i have 4 more days of school and then...CHRISTMAS BREAK!!!(and my birthday which is dec. 29...cool)...

My love life is shitty too, I still keep in touch with my ex bf but he is weird and he makes me mad all the time, we fight even when we dont see each other!! and other than that nobody is interested in me...which is pretty sad,,but eh...it happens...

I am going shopping in Milan tomorrow...yay!! i dont think i will buy anything but whatever it'is still fun going around looking at pretty things knowing that you will never be able to buy a Valentino(Prada, Gucci, Armani, Dolce e Gabbana..and all the cool italian designers) dress not even in a million years!!!!YAY!!But i am meeting a guy I met in USA..he was an ex stud like me...I miss him!!!

Well...I dont really have anything interesting to tell...soo

ARRIVEDERCI!

un bacio a tutti

Maria

nooo

2004-12-09T20:59:35Z

I seriously need help in math

yeah!

2004-11-28T19:11:38Z

Last night was a blast! I had soo much fun! I danced all night long...i am such a dancing queen!how cool! hahaha

Mandelli(this guy that works at that club) is so freakin hot!!! He is just amazingly beautiful...but I am too shy to go talk to him or something...he went to my school but he graduated i think 2 or 3 years ago...we used to call him "orgasm" hahahahaha....

So yeah i think i am starting to feel very very despered...I dont really want a seriuos relationship, a real bf, I just want a nice, cute guy to hang out with...why it's soo hard to find a guy who likes me? My inferiority complex is coming back stronger than ever...and i seriously dont like this feeling...I always try to act like a girl who is secure of herself but I think I am the most insecure girl in the world...and that sucks major ass!

and tomorrow I have a physics(???) test and I didnt study at all and I actually dont care...weird...

gotta go

VI VOGLIO TAAANTO TANTO BBENEEEE!!!

blaahh

2004-11-27T13:29:37Z

YOU GUYS SUCK!

I am in a very crappy mood lately...

and nobody remembers me, i am such a good victim..hahaha

love youuuuu

sick

2004-11-23T12:06:02Z

i am sick,tired and all by myself...
how booooring
does anybody want to give me company??hehehe

loove you

fun night

2004-11-07T15:03:09Z

so my baby lisa is 18 now!!!

we had to celebrate..here some cool cool pics..hehe

definetely a fun night...lots of good laughs...

love you all

maria

OC!!

2004-11-07T14:14:30Z

You are a certified OC FREAK!! your knowledge is
second to only the creators of this quiz
Richard and Jaxon!!!

Are you an OC Freak??
brought to you by Quizilla

yess! i am an OC freak!!
should i be proud of it?
hehhe

i knew it!

2004-11-05T14:27:39Z

i knew i was a good person!

I AM 48% ASSHOLE/BITCH!

I may think I am an asshole or a bitch, but the truth is I am a good person at heart. Yeah sure, I can have a mean streak in me, but most of the people I meet like me.

Take the ASSHOLE/BITCH test at Fuali.com

i am so boreeeed..
i think i am gonna take a nap and then try to study...

...

2004-11-02T14:06:45Z

hi everybody...

yeah i am still alive, but i am such a busy person that i cant find a minute to write stupid stuff about my not-interesting life...

well this weekend wasnt very fun...

halloween's parties at clubs in milan suck.

I went to this club called Rolling Stone on Sunday night...There were so many people...too many people...it was raining like crazy...I was completely soaked while i was waiting in the endless line...

whatever...

I should study but i am too lazy...but I have too..nooo

what else?

oh yes...my ex boyfriend is totally crazy, he got some mental issues for sure, i definetely hate him.

well i think I am done for now.

love you all

maria

help

2004-10-24T15:37:17Z

IMPORTANT

so yeah i lost all of the phone numbers i had...i keep looking for this stupid diary but i cant find it anywhere...
so if you want me to call you please leave your phone/cell number here!
thank you!!

love you all

Maria

TO DAN FAITH

2004-10-17T20:42:18Z

I really wanted to call you today cuz i finally had time!!
but i found out i lost my little book thingy with all my numbers and all the calling cards!!
i cant find them anywhere!!
dont worry as soon as i can find them i'll call you!!
i love you and i miss you
Maria

i hate kant

2004-10-15T18:10:31Z

i swear, i truly deeply hate kant and his fucking philosophy!!
studying philosophy for 4 and a half hours just makes me want to cry!!!
i hate Hume, Locke, Galileo, Pascal, Kant, Hegel, and all those stupid philosophers that just liked to smoke a lot of pot and write shit that we have to study like crazy!!
I am soo sick of school!!
help!

i cant take it anymore

2004-10-05T20:07:11Z

i never update
i never have time!goddamnit!
i study all the time...i feel like i am gonna die!
i didnt remember school was so hard!geez...
anxiety is taking over me...
i feel retarded, i cant follow the classes...
i wanna go back to americaaaaa!!
there's too much to study. my brain is gonna explode!
i hate school. i really do.
my life is school pratically. it sucks.
fortunately i have my ladies.
we went clubbing this weekend, it was a lot of fun!
Sarah turned 18 so we had to celebrate!
God how much I love them...
thank God I have them or I would kill myself..seriously!
...
it's 10pm and i am so fuckin tired...
tomorrow OC night!yeah!! i cant wait...
tomorrow french test...noooo
thursday phisycs test!noooo
friday italian lit test!noooo
saturday philosophy oral test!noooo

i am freaking out...please help me...
i miss tests with bubbles...

some pics...

five long years...

i hope we will last forever

love you and miss you all

Maria

...

2004-09-28T20:11:54Z

I am still alive, just let you know.

love

maria

bored

2004-09-10T18:15:24Z

i am so bored that i decided to put some pictures on...

amazing amazing...

love

maria

school

2004-09-08T18:08:30Z

So today was the first day of school..
it was so weird..seing everybody, again.
This is my senior year.
I am so excited to get the fuck out of high school.
I didnt really do anything these days..
just hanging out with my friends and hoping that school is just a nightmare...
unfortunately it's not.

love you all

i miss arizona!...sometimes...hahaha

maria

tear

2004-08-26T17:14:06Z

08/26/2003
a year ago...
I left.
Arizona was waiting for me.
Time goes by too fast for me...

I cant believe it.

Love

awww

2004-08-22T21:40:55Z

when i think about it i become veery sad and i hate it.

i just ate pizza with my family...cool
i even made a delicious cake today...
i wanted to go to this awesome art show today but something not cool at all happend so i couldnt go..damn it

i hang out with fabio last night..he is such a nice guy, he is very very cute too...

i feel weird right now...

my mood changes soo fast

it sucks

i feel happy and then sad and lonely and..i dunno..i just know taht sucks very bad!dammit!

tutto va a puttane certe volte..
vorrei che tutto fosse perfetto..una volta..una volta soltanto

love

Maria